“Missing someone gets easier everyday because even though you are one day further from the last time you saw them, you are one day closer to the next time you will.” ~Unknown
14 Jun 2011 Leave a Comment
in Family, Life, School, Wicca Tags: Arizona, Destrey, graduate, life, loneliness, love, Mississippi, Prom
First, I had to give a long overdue update on things. Then, I will get to the meaning behind my title quote.
Ok, let me thing about what has happened since January….
I’ll start by summing put the subject of high school in two words, I graduated. As for college, it’s a little longer story. I am going to Prescott in August, I do have enough money to cover it all, and I am getting an apartment on my own (for a little while at least). This is where it gets complicated and subjects start to blend together. I am going to be living out in Arizona, but by the beginning of December Destrey will be living with me. Now I guess I have to explain how that happened too since the last thing I mentioned about him was our relationship was possibly doomed to he is moving in with me. This is Destrey by the way:
Ok, well, to start, Destrey and I are much, much closer than before. I am completely open and honest with him, and I do truly love him more than anyone else. He has helped me through a lot. Including a recent suicide scare a little over a month ago, but that is something I won’t go into detail about. Anyways, we have been inseparable, even when he is currently visiting his family in Mississippi for the summer. Sure we have our little arguments and we know how to really push either others buttons, but that is to be expected. He has helped me, not just through some life trials, but made me permanently a better person. He is my optimist, he helps me not worry so much, and to let go of little things that I shouldn’t let bother me. So when he does turn 18 at the end of November I will come back for him and we are going to live in Arizona together. He will finish his senior year there, then go to college. While I will continue at Prescott. And if that doesn’t go according to plan he will move in with my family since they love him like a son already.
As for family things are crazier than ever. My mom had a broken foot from walking, then just as that foot was almost healed she broken her other foot in an accident as Sam’s Club. So she was down for a while, including after my sister had her second surgery. He first one went well and she only had the colostomy bag for a little over 8 weeks. It wasn’t as bad as we all thought it would be. And thankfully not many complications. My health has been pretty great, other than the depression episode.
Oh, I forgot to mention something! I went to Prom, with Destrey of course. It was beautiful, the theme was “A Night in Paris.” Here are some pictures:
Onto the subject of Wicca. I haven’t been as engaged as I would like to be, but I have been working a lot lately. But I am still learning what I can, when I can. Destrey is even starting to study it. I’m trying to help him look at other religions too, because I would rather him not study Wicca just for me.
And speaking of work, I have been dying there! Not really. It’s gotten much better actually. I think I’ve just gotten used to the routine of it now, so I’m staying until I leave for Arizona in August. I even got a raise! It’s not much at all (only $0.15) but it’s more than I was making before and they don’t give raises to part-times often. Anyways, I’m trying to pick up as many hours as I can in the next few weeks so I can get ahead in case I don’t get a job right away in Arizona.
Now to the meaning behind my title. As I briefly mentioned before, Destrey is gone. He is in Mississippi visiting his mom, stepdad, and twin 4-year-old sisters. I miss him a lot, more than I’ve missed anyone. He was going to come back and visit for a week on June 23rd but it didn’t happen, tickets were too high and I don’t trust his mom to let him come back after the way she treated me. I did visit during Spring Break for a week. It was ok, but some incidents happened that made his parents there not the biggest fans of our relationship. They don’t think we will last (my parents would kill me if I did anything to ruin mine and Destrey’s relationship). They are also not happy he is going to Arizona with me, they yelled at him for hours the day after I left Mississippi. And he changed his mind, so I’m worried about that too. I don’t want to lose him like that, it nearly killed me the first time. I just want him home. I miss him so much.
I think that is everything for now. I will try to get back to writing more soon.
